Stuff from my Google Reader, as well as some hysterical musings about my life.
I just got home from Tatyana’s housewarming party. I decided to pick her up a housewarming present and stopped at Daiso. However, I realized that even though I know she likes Japanese stuff, I didn’t really know Tatyana’s preferences in home decoration. I decided to get her an origami packet, which she’ll be able to have fun with and use for decoration if she chooses. She seemed to like it.
Tatyana had a pretty good spread of food and drinks. Lots of different and good hors d’oeuvres. I constantly had refreshments, and was offered some for the brief periods I didn’t.
One of her coworkers was really cute. She seemed fun and interesting. I stumbled though, telling my life story ie what I do for a living. That part is awkward when I’m finishing school. I didn’t capture her attention as much as I could have with that story. Even though that didn’t go great. I did get practice chatting, and importantly, I’m not upset about not hitting this opportunity out of the park like I have been in the past.
That was a nice excursion. Time to hit the books.
Yesterday was bit of a lost day. I only got a little bit of work done before I started feeling ill. I basically stayed in bed from 5pm on. I was feeling nauseous and couldn’t think straight. Reading research papers was not going to happen. I really wanted to go slacklining yesterday too.
I’m feeling a bit better today. I treated myself to breakfast at a diner before heading over to the nearby cafe.
My uncle called me for computer help this morning. He always pays me well, but it still would be inconvenient for me to get sidetracked to help him. I did a good job telling him no. Slowly getting better at that. My dad called me yesterday too. He probably wants me to help with something that’ll probably take away my time as well.
I’m going to be glad to be done with school, have time back for myself. I’m basically on the home stretch. I just have to hunker down and keep charging forward. I don’t regret going back to school. I definitely learned a lot and tried to push myself to my potential. I’m just ready to start the next chapter of my life, be able to focus on my livelihood and my health.
I could really use some social support at this time. The only “friend” I have at school now is a bit of a mess herself, so hanging out with her takes more away than it does help me. I’m rather jealous of the graduate students I know who have significant others/spouses. I definitely only recommend going back to school if you have some dependable support already in your life.
My brain feels like mush today. Not sure what is going on.
I just crashed an international English school prom. It was fun. I dressed up in a suit and tie, and nice shoes. It was my first time visiting a club in a long time. I got to practice approaching strange women and engaging them. I did pretty well with keeping my wits and not being shy. Talked to a couple of nice Japanese girls and a Dutch girl. Easily the most amount of women I have approached in a single night. It was a good experience.
My first thought on how I could improve things is to be more entertaining. My conversation wasn’t terribly exciting tonight. I could tell the Dutch girl could have used more lively banter. I was just asking basic questions. I’ll have to work on that for next time. At least I had the guts to go up to a tall beautiful girl tonight.
At Coffee Bar, I ran into a girl I know from the rock climbing gym. She told about a performance she is doing later tonight in Oakland. She does flamenco dancing. Seems like it would be a good event for socializing.
A bit later, a dressed up girl sat next to me. I noticed she was a very loud and fast typer. That was my opening comment. I was able to muster up the courage to say something, which was a positive step. I tried saying a second comment, but it didn’t really take. She got up to move to another table, which at first I took as a bad sign. Turned out though that her friend had just arrived and they were having a meeting. Anyways, hopefully opening my mouth and saying something will be easier thanks to this try.
Funny thing happened when I left my house just now. Saw my ex whizzing by on her bike as I was stepping out of my front door.
A lot of encounters with women today it seems. Maybe I’ll meet some more here at Sugarlump, or later on tonight.
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Last night I noticed I was rather bored. I had already done a decent amount of homework, and I didn’t have many places to go. I am more aware of how much time I have to kill now that I’m not expecting/looking forward to pr0n later in the night.
Amazingly I woke up at 6:30 this morning. I think it may have to do with my experiment of being the king of the county, lord of the manor, master of my domain, haha.
I got some climbing in, then did some chores, some “meditation” in bed, then spent the early afternoon at Sugarlump cafe. I realized it would be a good idea to charge my computer before going to the shop, so that I have more flexibility with where I could sit. I picked up some produce to make lunch, spring rolls. Now I’m at Coffee Bar.
I like going to 2 different coffee shops in one day. It makes the day go by a lot faster, having 2 different work environments. Maybe tomorrow I’ll switch it up and come here to Coffee Bar in the morning, then go to Sugarlump in the afternoon.
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I should try harder to come up with better things to cook for dinner. I’ve been eating too much prepackaged and takeout lately.
I forced myself to go some place new to do work. I’m trying out Coffee Bar on Mariposa. It’s a bit more comfortable, less stuffy compared to Haus, where I have been trying to work. There are also a lot more drink and food options, including alcohol. The music seems to be more generic and less avant-garde, which will help with staying on task. I’m enjoying an iced tea now. It’s refreshing after riding around the neighborhood on a somewhat warm day.
Awkward note: There’s a girl here whom I’ve interviewed as a roommate before. We did not pick her. It looked like she recognized me.
On another note: I’m going to try to write more here as a way of socializing as I work, as I don’t have any peers close by. At least not yet. I would use IM, but the people I used to talk to have irregular hours now. Anyways, let’s see how this other experiment goes.
I realized just now that I’m mainly motivated by my love of things. It isn’t working out for me at the moment. I’m going to try focusing on doing things because I hate the alternatives. My reasoning that I’ll try harder to maintain myself, to persevere, instead of working for things that aren’t really fulfilling nor dependable. Maybe that’ll work better for me, get me to be more productive.
These nice older women at this thai restaurant just told me I look good bald. Was sweet of them.
Hey, stomach. I just put food in you a few hours ago; quit bothering me. I’m trying to do work now.
